Tuesday, September 20, 2016

{lost the plot}

When a person has experienced significant, lengthy mental distress (holding up hand here), the cure is a long-term one.  Sadly it's not about taking a pill and magically being what's normal to other folks.  And not to take away from anyone else's distress.  We all have it.  Just for me, it's been layered a bit overmuch.

So, most mornings I have to do a mental shake-down, getting my mood right, focusing on the Lord's blessings and as my feet hit the floor, I start over.  I wish it was a quick fix, normal being my everyday, but that's not my experience.  Depression is my bug-bear, plain and simple.

Today I make a delicious dinner, keep the house relatively tidy and focus on staying calm.  It's baby steps. like most things.  I really have to stay on top of my reaction to things.  I get rattled so easily, and it's important to balance the zingy feeling with tasks that settle my nerves.  Wise advice for everybody.

Anyway, here's dinner tonight (recipe below).  When my husband and I went to California to visit our son, we ate dinner at one of his friend's houses.  Young couple, six kids and a dab hand at making meals stretch.  This is wonderful:

Pork Taco Crockpot Meal

Soak 1-2 pounds of pinto beans overnight (I do 2 because I can't seem to, even now, cook in small batches---years of cooking for ten will do that)

In the morning, add:
Approximately 3 lb. pork roast (boneless or bone in)
3 T chili powder
1 teaspoon salt (she lists 2 T in the recipe, but this was too salty for us, so I just added 1 t. today)
1 T cumin
2 teaspoons oregano
1 chopped onion
3 T minced garlic (or 1-1/2 teaspoons garlic powder)

She soaked hers in the crockpot overnight, and I did it in a large bowl.  I rinsed the beans after soaking, put the meat in the crockpot first and poured the beans and seasonings on top.  Then because the beans had no liquid, I poured about a cup or two of water in the pot at the last.

Cook on high 6-8 hours.  You can mash beans if you prefer.  Shred meat and serve in taco salad, burritos, on tortillas, rice, etc.  Very versatile.

*Today I'm cooking a 4-1/2 lb. pork roast, so the cooking time is significantly longer.  Also, I've turned my crockpot on high to accommodate that change.

Love this meal.  And there's enough for 2 nights, with the six of us still here at home.


1 comment:

Kimberly~Nutbrown Cottage said...

You need to go at whatever pace is best for you, my dear. One thing that I've noticed is that my mind is much more erratic when I eat wheat. Sounds silly, but it's true. I still eat it, but I try not to eat it much. Skipping it entirely made my depression go away. That ruminating stops. Weirdest thing!