Thursday, April 26, 2018

{prayer need}

Sometimes I just need to get stuff off my chest. A situation has reared its head here, and prayers would be appreciated.

Remember awhile back, months and months ago in fact, when I shared that our oldest son's girlfriend was in the 'adult entertainment industry'? Website, etc. with her being the star attraction. He initially said she was into photography, and neglected to specify. But, I mean, who would?

We found out by accident. It was never meant to be know by us what she does. Cleverly she designs websites, business sites, as her acceptable cover.

My husband talked to his dad on the phone on Monday, and my FIL asked about their engagement. News to us. He goes on to to comment on the nice photo of the two of them on Facebook. My husband can't tell them the truth, that their first grandson is in the thick, somehow...we don't know to what extent, with this adult market.

Where will this marriage take place, when, are you expecting anything from us, am I imagining the whole thing?

So bizarre.

But I came to a place of peace. God is ever faithful. I'll try my best to live MY life and y'all have at it.

Told my husband I'd like to talk to our priest about this. He wasn't keen. Not sure if it's shame on my husband's part, or simply not wanting to lay this burden on our pastor.

"I wonder how much of what weighs me down is not mine to carry?"

"You don't know why you're exhausted? You're fighting a war in your head every single day. If that's not exhausting, I don't know what is."

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."~Phillippians

I need to learn to let these difficult situations pass over me. To not clutch at them.

What's hard. First, not being part of this wedding, whether we'd be asked or not is an unknown, but realizing that we're privey to information that others, except for her parents, are unaware of. So, we don't participate and appear mean.

It's just unbelievable.

Live my life, love my granddaughters and my tribe here at home, take care of my home, nurture myself as well.

Roll it over. Please pray.